Indivisible

 

indivisibleIndivisible is a story of deep unresolved childhood pain that holds a man and a woman stuck in a past that many of us can relate to.  This compelling story deals with the all too familiar effects of how unresolved issues from the past can hinder and cripple many decisions we make as adults.  When Jonah has to deal with serious on the job police issues, he struggles to make the best decisions concerning his long-time friend Tia.  Tia has made wrong decisions in her career path and continues to hold on to the anger she has against Jonah.  Through their tumultuous relationship, I was able to identify several deep rooted issues that I needed to address in my own life.

I thought about the pain and regret I felt when I decided to have an abortion 15 years ago.  That was the second worse traumatic experience of my life and I went into a very dark depression for many years afterward.  I thought in my own reasoning that if I just had another child right away all the pain and regret would somehow go away.  Oh how wrong I was.  It was almost immediately after the abortion that I met back up with an old boyfriend and basically fast tracked a whirlwind love affair.  I wanted to have a child asap!  I realized quickly that the pain didn’t go away at all.  Now, I am so very pleased that I was able to give birth to my daughter. 

I don’t deny that for one second.  I can say that a day doesn’t go by that I don’t ponder if my child was a boy or a girl.  I have heard testimonies from women who have made this grave mistake and recall their pain.  They have spoken on their request for God to give them some type of solace about the child and some have said they have actually seen their unborn child in Heaven.  Oh, how I have prayed for something like this to happen for me, but God has been silent about this issue completely.  Indivisible allowed me to spend some much needed time with Father God to work through the pain of the many decisions I made some 15 years ago.  Could it be that I am just now still enough to be able to deal with the deep wounds I have created out of wrong thinking and immature bible knowledge?  It has been very therapeutic to allow God to do some much needed deliverance in this area of my life.  Join me in stilling yourself before our Lord to receive the deliverance He has readily set for us to partake of….

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Holding on to your passions through Savannah From Svannah Part Two

Savannah from SavannahTuesday, I ended with a brief synopsis of my childhood discovery concerning eating disorders.  Even though I didn’t choose to be neither anorexic nor bulimic, I did have issues with excessive exercising without eating much food.  I was able to get help from my mother, brother and the doctor.  Thank God for my mother!  She actually cooked me breakfast, lunch and dinner until I was able to find balance and feel better about myself.  Okay, enough about that topic of research and on to another.  It’s funny, as I think about it-I should have put much more focus on relationship research.  Oh yeah, how about my own behaviors.  Now that would have been a great help to me and to the other people who were truly annoyed by me. 

Okay, yes I said all that to say, I pretty much love to do research on things that I am interested in.  Savannah has a knack for putting her all into a great story that she believes in.  How many times do we really do the extra hard work to pour ourselves into what will better ourselves and those we are close with?  Where do our investments really lie?  While this is a quirky kind of story about a young woman in pursuit of her dreams, there are real lives that have been affected by her hard work.  Sometimes Savannah doesn’t get it right, even though her heart was in a good place.  But isn’t that just how life works.  For the many of us who really don’t set out to hurt others, sometimes is still happens.  But isn’t it just like our Father in Heaven to help us sort ourselves out and to make it right as best as we can to others who are hurt by our actions.  If you are looking for a fun read, please click on the link to find out about Savannah http://reclaiminghearts.com/the-savannah-series/

Until we read again, many blessings…

Holding on to your passions through Savannah From Savannah Part One…

 

Savannah is a young college graduate from a wealthy southern background.  This story is a witty story about an aspiring writer.  As a lover of reading and writing myself, I could identify with Savannah’s desire to fulfill her life long dream of writing.  Of course, she has people in her life that want to control how she goes about her dream, but she discovers that her journey is her own.  She uses grace and integrity to stay in good, respectful relationships with those who would like to run how her dreams should be played out.  Another thing that struck me to the core in this book is the personality differences between Savannah and her mother.  I mean they are like night and day.  But isn’t that the way it is sometimes.  This world would be a total bore if we were all alike.  Savannah and I are alike in that we are very inquisitive.  I remember my mother telling me as a young girl that if it was anything that I didn’t understand, I needed to ask the teacher until I understood.  That bit of wisdom has never left me.  I will fight to understand something that I am interested in. 

As I digress for just a second, there was a time that many people saw me as the little fat girl with bifocals.  Well my friend it was true.  I was pretty plump with big glasses.  So, I decided that I was going to lose weight and I thought I was going to try anorexia or bulimia.  This was until I did research on the side effects and personal life stories of people who have struggled with these types of eating disorders.  Hey, I could take the hint and I didn’t want to deal with any of those side effects-so I nixed that idea quickly.  I do know many young and older women who have struggled with this, so I do not take it lightly and understand the struggle.  Please share a bit of your story if you can relate to this issue and have found positive direction, or simply need encouragement/prayer in this area.  Check out tomorrows post to read about the struggle I was able to overcome with my eating habits.  Blessings until then……

Savannah from Savannah

Go after your passions and enjoy the ride

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Take a Chance on Me

Trust « AgapeOutreach Take a chance on me, written by Susan Warren is a story about a man who has lost his wife and struggles with several issues, which are certainly keeping him from moving forward.  Then enters to town a young woman with deep longings that have never been materialized in her life before moving to the small town of Deep Haven.  I find it intriguing how the author has woven together such a deep, heart provoking story that touches your deepest core.

I am not exactly sure if she is in any deep type of prayer as she writes, but I feel like her novels including this one is anointed by God.  I can see how Holy Spirit took this story and urged me to consider deep wounds from my past.  It’s true that I have not experienced the exact struggles as her characters, but I believe that the faith message that she writes about and real life issues create an atmosphere where one can be transparent with the Lord.  The Lord can use what these stories offer to bring us into times of healing and refreshing.

Whether these characters and experiences are truly inspired stories doesn’t matter to me.  I was able to meditate on my wounds and bring them before God in a way that God chose to utilize through the words on these pages.  I mean who said that God is limited to any means He chooses to bring us into places of spiritual healing.  I say hat’s off to the author for allowing the Lord to use her to not only bring people to a place of healing, but also to salvation with our Lord Jesus Christ.

I was able to look closely at the motives to why I decided to get married at age 23.  I can certainly see that although it has ended, my role from the beginning wasn’t built on the truth or leading of God’s word.  I look over the course of time and realize that my actions/thoughts affected many people.

Sometimes we don’t realize that when we aren’t guided by God’s leadership we make wrong decisions that impact many people.  I praise God for christian writer’s who inspire us to go deeper in God and receive His truth for daily destiny steps.  Until the next great read………….Blessings.

The beginning of wisdom is this:  Get wisdom.  Though it cost all you have, get understanding. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Proverbs 4:7 & 12